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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

pictures

29-09-2008
Hollys Coffee, NZX


Me, Grandma, Joshua

my deary grandma

21-09-2008
Sg. Wang
8th Global Chinese Music Awards



rachteng, me, soo hui

soo hui, me, soo yin, eve

Manhand

DJ Point

Daeren

Von

MC Bee

MC Toy


12-07-2008
Auto City, Penang


Danny's birthday cake

soo yin, me, lemon, soo hui, i-tung, danny, lay leng, eve

me, eve, soo yin, soo hui

credits to soo hui for pictures.

happy moments. =)
enjoy & live life to the fullest.
cause you'll never know what will happen tomorrow.

got over you

All this time i've wasted
All the memories I tasted
Everything was gone so fast
Now its just a part of the past
Never asked for all of this
Never asked for your kiss
You changed with time
I thought you were mine
But after all we went through
I still didn’t have you
I never asked for much
I just wanted your trust
Now all this time I have wasted
For memories I wish I had never tasted
Now you stand there
And show how much you don’t care
Trying to make me feel sad
But ill tell you now I don’t feel bad
I can look in the mirror
Without my eyes filled with tears
I can hear my heart pound
I can hear every sound
No more wishing I was dead
No more dreaming of the things I hadn’t said
I can say I'm over you
And finally admit that its true..

Monday, September 29, 2008

Silly girl

She has gotten to know a guy.
She falls for him although they just met once.
Just met once, and she falls for him.
Somehow, she knows that it is being ridiculous.
They used to text each other everyday, but this doesn't last long.
6 months has passed.
She feels forgotten, abandoned, and hurt.
He was the one who approached her in the first place.
He was the one who gave her hope.
Now he is the one who neglected her.
Her hope is vanished.
No longer in this endless dream, she has wakened up.
She has never adored so much before.
Since the day, he came to her life.
He is the one she truthfully and utterly opened up to and for.
But, why the one you love the most always seems to hurt you the most? She just doesn't understand why.
Her heartaches when she long for him.
With tears, all flowing down her cheeks.
A silly girl, she is.
Proffer an affection which is not reciprocated.
Believe in all those stupid lies.
Believe in all kinds of sweet talk.
Winding back the precious moments they had, it is hurting.
Broken promises and heartaches, is what he gave.
She hates it when he screws her mind.
She doesn't want to look back in the past.
Although the past is still fresh in her mind.
She wants to move on in her life, without tears and fears.
As his disappearance is not an ending point in her life.
She believes that with the guidance of God, she will able to make it.
All she needs to do now is to…
Forget about the past.
Forget the memories.
Forget about him.
Forget his name.
Forget his look.
Forget all those conversations they had.
Forget everything they shared.
She doubted if she could forget everything about him.
How can he get out of her mind?
Forgetting someone special, she knows it is hard.
Sooner or later, for sure she will be able to get over him.
Yes, getting over him.
It’s just a matter TIME.


“ You know what’s happening, but just don’t want to admit it because it’s hurtful. But the truth is that you are already hurting. It’s hard to let go someone whom you thought was interested in you, but he’s giving you all the signs that he’s not into this ‘friendship’ anymore. You need to take heed of this. If you get a chance to talk to him, ask him what’s wrong, but don’t expect an answer you’ll be happy with.

Sometimes people just lost interest, sometimes people move on. It’s part of life, and as hard as it may be, just be glad that this ‘friendship’ has only been for 6 months. You feel forgotten and neglected, but there is a lesson to be learned here.

Make sure you don’t treat other people in this way. If you ever find yourself not interested in someone after a while, do the right thing and tell them kindly. Stop focusing on this guy and move on to other things; you’d be surprised at how quickly he’ll be of no interest of you.

It’s frustrating when someone you like does not seem to reciprocate, especially when things were going well before. Sometimes, absence does make the heart grow fonder. At the very least, it will give you an opportunity to figure out your own feelings for him.

Try to be as calm and mature as you can. Do not let disappointment or those bitter feelings take control of you as they can really mess up other aspects of your life. ” - the star


if something doesn't belongs to you,
then just let it go instead of waiting.

at least you will feel better, although it's suffering.
if something do really belongs to you,
no matter what, it'll still come back to you.

cause it's meant for you.



Sunday, September 28, 2008

fiona & joanne

meet up with fi & joa on last friday.
could hardly meet up nowadays with them.
cause they got their own partner.
their own sweet bf. haha.
all were attached.
when is my turn huh? lol.
we went ming tien at taman megah.
chit chat around.
mostly talk about fiona's bf.
both of them were real sweet. envy ~
after yumcha, headed to fiona's house.
camwhore session. haha.


the three of us.
me, joa, fiona.


btw, i quit that fxcking job already.
so guys, don't go there and look for me k.
give me a call or text me if you guys wanna hang out with me.
i will be free.
and im gonna find some tuition jobs. yes, become a tuitor.
hmm. maybe la. still don't know yet.
besides, im gonna look for home based job too.

gonna have 1 week breaks for raya holidays.
happy holidays everyone !
enjoy your holidays ya! =)

Friday, September 26, 2008

empty heart

An empty heart doesn’t care
An empty heart has no love to share
An empty heart is a lonely hole
An empty heart is like a stone
An empty heart has no compassion
An empty heart gets no satisfaction
An empty heart cannot cry
An empty heart might as well die
An empty heart is so sad
My heart is now empty
‘Cause I am not glad
Destiny Avaritia

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Tagged by Eve Lynn

1. What is the most important thing in your life?
my career. i hope i will be able to find what i want and do what i want to do in life.

2. What is the last thing you bought with your own money?
drinks at 7-11. lol.

3.Where do you wish to get married?
in the air plane, at the beach, or... star cruise!! *dreaming*

4. How old do you think you'll be permanently owned by your lover?
hmm. i think most probably around 25 years old? hope so.

5. Are you in love?
currently nope. im loveless. wanted to be in love, but no one to be in love with.

6. Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
yuen steamboat at sunway.

7. Name the latest book you bought?
the wonder spot by melissa bank

8. What is your full name?
wong pik kei. =)

9. Do you prefer mother or father?
i hate both. and im better off without them.

10. Name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time.
er.. mariah carey??

11. Christina or Britney?
Britney of course!

12. Do you do your own laundry?
nope. yea. im lazy. xp

13. The most exciting place you want to go?
well, i suppose everywhere has their own excitement.

14. Hugs or Kisses?
can i choose both? haha.

15. Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
- kind & nice
- emo
- sakai :p
- loves nike like crazy
- small size

16. 8 things I'm passionate about
- friends
- idols
- music
- dance
- heels
- clothes
- bags
- dessert

17. 8 things I say too often
- damn
- fxck
- shit
- ma de
- deng
- SH
- ?
- ?

18. 8 books I've read recently
- the wonder spot
- bibles =)
- ?
- ?
- ?
- ?
- ?
- ?
i don't really read books. haha.

19. 8 songs I could listen to over and over again
- Bye Bye - Mariah Carey
- Wait For You - Elliot Yamin
- Always Be My Baby - David Cook
- Jordin Sparks - Tattoo
- In Da Ayer - Flo-rida feat Will.i.am
- Make Love in This Club - Usher feat Young Jeezy
- Wo Bu Pei - Jay Chou
- Love & Freedom - Danny One
- Say Goodbye - Danny One
- Man Hang - Manhand
- Zhun Shi Shou Ting - Manhand
- Zhuan Ji - Wilber Pan
- Shuo Ni Ai Wo - Wilber Pan
- Bu De Bu Ai - Wilber Pan

20. 8 things I learnt this year.
- don't give up so easily.
- don't trust someone too easily.
- don't fall for someone too easily.
- don't be too naive, especially in the world of LOVE.
- don't put all of your heart & soul to someone who doesn't appreciate.
- don't let others bully you & take advantage from you, learn to protect yourself.
- live life to the fullest.
- have faith in God. =)
- prove to those people that im not useless.
especially those who look down on me & under estimate me.
- don't rely and expect anything from anyone for something.
help never came without strings attached.
- i've been through alot of of hard times. especially with family matters. so i'll never let my children to follow my footsteps as i don't want them to suffer in future.
all i hope is to have my own happy family.
HAPPINESS, that is all i want.

21. 8 people you tag
- soo hui
- christine
- joanne wei
- lee ching
- chu wei
- yee wah
- sarah
- fiona

Monday, September 22, 2008

awesome day..

yesterday was an A-W-E-S-O-M-E day for me.
i took leave.
yes, i need a break.
and i certainly D-E-S-E-R-V-E a break.
i had my plans. :)
deary soo hui picked me up from house in the morning.
headed to sg.wang for breakfast.
the main thing is the 8th global chinese music awards.
many artists were there. gary chaw was there too.
i went there because of MANHAND. *winks*
all of them were pretty cool yesterday. er.. as usual i suppose. haha.
i like their top, so COLORFUL. lol.
'' HE '' did something that really made me happy yesterday.
and my heart was beating real fast. haha.
we saw them for quite a number of times.
and he finally give us some reaction.
that was his first time though.
well, all i can say is that he's too shy in a way. cute.
at least we know that he knows how to give us proper reaction when we show our supports towards them.
not only him, the rest of them as well.
H-A-P-P-Y !!
besides that, i won myself cash which worth RM 100.
haha. so lucky ~

then, 9 of us went to Yuen steamboat for dinner.
after dinner, went to soo hui's house.
was chilling at her house.
i like the place she stays. nice & windy.
finally i get to see her true color.
she can be rather agressive at times huh.
scary ~~~~ hahahaha.
all of us were crazy too. laugh darn loud.
yeah, especially me. hahaha.
laughter is the best medicine ma.
so i must laugh more often. lol.
its a poor heart that never rejoices.
so i must be more happy for most of the time.
went home at 12 something.
reached home at 1 something.
went out the whole day. darn tired.
from 11am - 1am. 14 hours. whoa~
thanks to eve for driving me back home. =)
pictures will be uploaded soon.



somehow i felt that im no longer important to you.
maybe i should learn how to let go.
should i?

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Bye, Dexter!

met up with Dexter on last friday night.
went to hartamas square at sri hartamas.
fiona accompanied me and she drove me there.
her drving skills wasn't bad though.
she drove a big car. she's so small in size. lol.
well, that would be the last time meeting up with dexter.
as he's leaving to US for his final year of business studies.
he was suppose to leave on saturday.
but his flight was canceled.
guess that he was happy with it as he's not ready to head back.
and he's gonna leave on monday instead.
he's such a nice guy. yeap. he's funny too, at times. haha.
dexter, im gonna miss you loads too. lol.
take good care. =)


the funny dexter. haha.

me & dexter

fiona & dexter

Friday, September 19, 2008

off day

well, i break my promise.
i skip class in the morning yesterday.
'cause the previous night after work i went out to McD alone to do my assignments. stay up late till 2 something.
couldn't wake up the next day.
McD is a new & nice spot to study and do your work there.
its 24 hours, free wifi too.
i have done one of the assignments. still got few more to go. hope i could manage to finish up asap.

i enjoyed my day yesterday, which is thursday.
since thursday is my only off day so i gotta make use of the day.
after class, went for dinner with my fga cyc peeps. had "bak gu teh" near my house. seldom eat "bak gu teh" though.
victor picked me up. with jasmine, ashley and another guy whom i know, but don't know his name. im sorry. -.-" lol.
it was fun hanging out with them.
get to chat about many things. get along well. =)

after dinner, picked deary joanne up & her bf as well at taman jaya lrt station. first time meeting her bf, darren. lol.
then, we decided to go yumcha somewhere near TTDI.
headed to Rasta. tried shisa. my first time. er.. i don't really like it. don't understand why so many people like it. haha.
dropped darren at ikea then fetched joa back home.
then we called it a day!! =)



me & joanne.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

public holiday

yesterday was a public holiday for selangor.
therefore got no class for college.
i didn't tell my supervisor that i got no class.
because i know that for sure he will ask me to work from 10am-10pm. and i don't wanna work for the whole day. it's tiring.
so i follow the usual schedule on wednesday.
start working at 5pm.
early morning, drove back to grandma's house.
she came back from bangkok, finally.
then, headed to mid valley to pass my i-pod charger to sis eva.
my i-pod was robbed by those fxckers, so i just gave it to her.
currently tempted to buy the latest model of i-pod nano. argh!

i want this. i love blue.

me & eva then went to starbucks, gardens.
i brought my laotop along because i wanted to do my assignments.
she then said that she actually bought a ticket for movies in the noon. " The Love Guru ". and she's gonna watch alone.
since i don't get to watch movie that often and it's been few months since the last i hang out with my besties. so, i accompany her to watch that movie.
that movie was real funny. had a great time laughing in the cinema.
jessica alba is smoking hot ~~
after movie, went to o cha-cha & yoshinoya.
time goes by so darn fast. sigh.
after finish chilling with her, she then went home.

surprisingly i was actually in a good mood working yesterday.
you know why?
because supervisor wasn't around. he was off yesterday. :)

my favorite drink - chocolate cream chip


the Guru Pitka

me & dear sis eva. :)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Happy B'day Evelynn!!!

Dearest EVE LYNN,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !! =)
i know that soo hui they all went to your house and gave you a b'day suprise. soo hui said that it was a lame surprise. lol.
but it sounds fun.
i wanted to join, but i can't make it. was at aunt's house.
a mini b'day celebration is what you did for my b'day this year.
but i didn't do anything for your b'day.
im so sorry for that. guilty. sigh.
anyway, may you have a wonderful year ahead.
may our friendship will last forever yea. =)
stay sakai. haha.
cant wait for the next event.
*hugs*



sisters

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

again

i skipped class, A-G-A-I-N.
i couldn't wake up.
yeah, due to the tiredness.
woke up at 9am, forced to.
some renovation thingy going on at the house next door.
isssh. got really irritated by the mixed noisy sound.
it was darn annoying.
i was darn pissed and i eventually rush out of the house with pyjamas and tried to shout at them.
but too bad, they couldn't hear that i actually shouted : ''ooi, bising-bising! , shadupp!''... and stuff.
i know im rude & mean. im sorry.
but somehow they disturb my beauty sleep.
so, it was their fault.
initially, wanted to go college for the following class.
but, lazy. tired.
so ended up back to my dreamland again, till noon.
then, drove to work again. haih.
i don't feel like working.
it's tiring.
it's killing me. =(

yesterday was moon cake festival.
happy mid autumn festival everyone.
well, i didn't celebrate, that's for sure.
play with lanterns..
moon cakes..
dinner with family..
N-O-P-E!!

*yawn* it's time to sleep.
my eyelids are heavy.
i don't wanna skip class anymore. i hope so.haha.



though you are not here,
wherever i go or whatever i do,
i see your face in my mind,
and i miss you so.
i miss your voice,
i miss your face,
i miss telling you everything,
i miss everything we shared,
i miss you calling me sweetie pie,
i miss you patting me to bed in a telepathy way,
i miss every single thing from you.
i don't like missing you,
it's a very cold & lonely feeling.
i wish that i could be with you right now.
because i miss you so.


glad that u said you're missing me badly <3

Monday, September 15, 2008

15th

15th of september, time flies.
15th of march, i miss.
missing you is the heartache.

memories don't burn...



why aren't you calling me?
why aren't you sending me any messages?
why aren't you here holding around me?
why aren't you here with me?
my heart aches.

Friday, September 12, 2008

proper dinner

finally, i get to have proper dinner.

since i started working at adidas, i don't get to have proper dinner.
i don't get to eat dinner most of the time.
that dumbo supervisor insisted us to have lunch at the store room.
he can go out and have lunch with his friends but the staff cannot. damn fxcking unfair.
well, that store room is damn bloody small.
got no chairs and table for us to have meal.
the shoes rak is my ''table''.
and the water pail is my ''chair''.
aiya, better than sitting on the floor la wong pik kei.
at least got water pail for you. fxck.
yesterday was my only off day.
deary auntie vee yee and her husband brought me to have dinner at NZX, which is near to their house. had japanese food at Kansai restaurant. sounds like kanasai. haha.
well, i don't really dare to eat sashimi and salmon.
due to the disgusting mail that shown by my social psychology lecturer that day.
guys, don't eat too much of sushi & sashimi.
don't eat too often okay.
its for your own good, seriously. haha.


my favorite unagi. yummy ~

deary autie vee yee

Thursday, September 11, 2008

exams

having exams throughout this week.
i didn't really study. i don't have the time.
well, maybe you guys will think that im just using that as an excuse.
i was seriously tired and exhausted after work.
i tried to stay up late until 2 something in the midnight just to study.
yea, burn midnight oil. it doesn't works, at all.
but somehow, i just cant remember what i had studied.
the things i read just doesn't seems to store in my memory.
and i did very badly for media appreciation and social psychology.
i left the essays blank. i know im gonna fail all these subjects.
tomorrow gonna have econs paper. i HATE econs!
i just couldn't concentrate on the papers during exams.
i just feel like dozing off. even when i was drving.
and i nearly got into an accident. haih.
that dumbo supervisor doesn't understand my situation.
he insisted me to work until 10pm everyday.
im not a robot you know. idiot.
and i cant be late for work, even a second.
as they will deduct my wages. WTF!
yesterday the moral paper was supposed to start at 2pm-3pm.
mana tau, it has been postponed to 4pm-5pm.
and i start working at 5pm.
i manage to finish my moral papers in just 15 minutes.
and then i rushed to mid valley. speeeeed~~~
kinda jam. luckily i wasn't late. phew~

my grandma went to bangkok for holidays, again.
she's going there for a week.
therefore, im staying at my aunt's house.

everyday's routine is about the same.
college, work. college, work.
D-A-R-N!!!!
im really tired. tired. tired. tired.tired.tired.

oh ya~ today is thursday!! wee ~
i LOVE thursday, no more friday.
you know why?
because im off today!! don't have to work!!!
well, gonna stay at home and rush for ASS-ignments.
damn alot. arghhh...

Sunday, September 7, 2008

The one i gave my heart to

How could the one I gave my heart to, break my heart so bad?

How could the one who made me happy, make me feel so sad?
Wont somebody tell me? So I can understand.
If you love me, how could you hurt me like this?

How could the one I gave my world to, throw my world away?
How could the one who said I love you, say the things you say?
How could the one I was so true too, just tell me lies?
How could the one I gave my heart to, break this heart of mine?
Tell me...

How could you be so cold to me? When I gave you everything.
All my love, all I had inside.
How could you just walk out the door?
How could you not love me anymore?
I thought we had forever.
I cant understand.

How could the one I share my dreams with, take my dreams from me?
How could the love that brought such pleasure, bring such misery?
Wont somebody tell me? Somebody tell me please.
If you love me, how could you do that to me?
Tell me...

Saturday, September 6, 2008

i hate it

i hate the feelings when someone blame you for not doing anything wrong. i believe that everyone hates it too.
im am sure that i did nothing wrong.
and yet the dumbo still blame me for doing things in a wrong way.
damn it.
i don't deserve that okay. fxck!
i just wanna say. just put yourself in my shoes okay.
what if others blame you when you really did nothing wrong?
how would you feel huh? just ask yourself.
especially when these happens at work.
whenever i try to fight back, my tears just start rolling down my cheeks. i tried my very best to hold my tears.
somehow my tears just doesn't seems to listen to me.
my tears just non-stop rolling down, and it's uncontrollable.
i know that life is all about obstacles.
all of us have to face it and overcome it.
i tried to be tough, in many ways.
and i've gone through many things, until this far.
but i just can't be tough. and i know that i'll never be.
stay strong? stay tough? BULLSHIT!
im such a FAILURE.
i HATE myself.

同人不同命.
你是人,我也是人.
但就是命运不同.
做人做到这么辛苦, 这么失败,
到底是为了什么?
值得吗?
我觉得很辛苦.
我快撑不下去了.

Friday, September 5, 2008

i wish you knew

I've got to see you
Whenever you are
And I've got to be there
I'm wishing on stars
I've got to reveal what's inside of my heart
But the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew
How I love you baby

Honestly I know it's silly of me
To want you so badly
But keep it concealed

See my inferiority complex kicks in
And the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

And how I wish you only knew
What I feel inside for you
You probably haven't got a clue
But I wish you knew

How I love you baby

-mariah carey-

imissyou. T.T

Thursday, September 4, 2008

tired & stress

i skip class today in the morning due to the tiredness.
even if i go to college, i would definitely sleep in class.
i think im the only one who sleep the most in class.
i cant help. but Mr. Z, (Z.z.z. monster) loves me too much. he kept asking me follow him to his dreamland. lol.
today is my only off day. but class ends at 5pm, pretty late.
my only free time is after 10pm, everyday. except thursday.
i only get to go church every first and third week of the month. sigh.
im going to ivy's house tonight to do the pair work assignment.
there's about 7 assignments including the research paper. and i've done only 1. 6 more to go? die. and i gotta do the book review. need to read that book which is more than 300 pages.
pandai betul. bought 300 pages book to read. arghh!!
moreover, next week is my mid-term exam. arghh!!
how i wish there is more than 24 hours a day for me. sigh. T.T

lance visited me yesterday. he said i look darn pale.
of course la. lack of sleep. sleep late, wake up early. haih.
yesterday there was a guy, bought a pair of rod laver from me.
after an hour later, he called to the shop and look for me.
he said that he wants to date me out and ask for my handphone number. weirdo! gosh. wonder how he get the shop's number.
you know la, when you want something, you would say a thousand of reasons to get it. when you don't want something, you would also say a thousand reasons to reject it.
i said loads of lame excuses. haha. then, i hung up.
i was thinking, i look so pale and yet still got people wanna date me out. well, maybe it's his preference la. who knows that he likes those girls with pale look right? haha.

i saw fiona and her bf as well.
they were passing by adidas originals.
i saw them but fiona didn't notice me. she didn't even know that i was working there. until her bf saw me. then we chatted awhile.
well, whenever i saw the both of them, there's always a word that runs through my mind, oftenly. that is HAPPINESS.
how i wish i get to have a bf who loves me.
since i've been single for 9 months.
and previously all were puppy love. haha.
im sure that everyone wanted to be loved. so am i.
im so envy looking at those sweet couples.
since i started working at adidas originals, many thoughts runs through my mind though.
bf bought shoes for gf.
"dear, this shoes nice anot?"
"nice ar, buy la."
"that pair also nice ler dear."
"then try that pair also la."
''both also nice. buy which one huh? can't decide ler."
"buy both la."

aww. so sweet.
the bf even help the gf to put on the shoes, tie the shoelaces.
envy~~~~




Tuesday, September 2, 2008

wilber pan ♥

went to wilber’s last promo tour at sg wang on sunday night, it is actually a mini summer concert.
didn’t take much nice pictures because I was kinda far away from the stage, plus many people were blocking my nice view. sigh.
they offer a special privilege. anyone who bought 3 albums and above, they get to have a nice warm hug from him. arghh!!
i bought only 1 album. He signed it and I just get to shake hands with him. sigh.
thanks to genius & zeo who took the trouble all the way to kl to fetch me.
thanks alot. you guys are really nice.
haih. emo-ing ~~
emo~ emo~ emo~


i love wilber pan. ♥

emo.