get over it before you go on with it.

i miss...

Korea
england
london
vietnam
italy
netherlands
Yemen
australia
portugal

choices to make

white chocolate
milk chocolate
dark chocolate

liquor chocolate


im fond with the liquor chocolate.
it's not that the other 3 types doesn't taste good,
is just that ...

my heart is still with the liquor choc.
despite knowing that i'll never able get to try the taste of liquor choc.

it's not easy to forget the feelings that you've once deeply buried in your heart.
ain't that easy to let go.
you'll know how it feels when it comes to you.
trust me.


i must not lose myself in emotions, i have to appear strong.
i know im able to hide them, but it doesn't mean that im dealing with them.

Yee Hui bro 19th B'day Celebration @ MOS

Dear Yee Hui bro,
Happy Belated 19th Birthday to YOU!!
you're one of the nicest bro, friends forever! =)
loves.

more pictures on FB! (soon) :p

KY

IMYVM...

IMYB.
ISTAY.
ICSTFY.

last night, i dreamt of someone again.
glad that it was just a dream. won't happen in reality.
cause he was being way too harsh towards me in my dream.
i really don't want that to happen to me.
but somehow, if he really did that to me, exactly like what happen in my dream,
i think i'll be able to let go . .. ... .... .....



tears are words that heart can't explain...

sometimes i really blame myself for being such a silly person.
you know i still think about you all the time.

when a girl is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind.
when a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long will you be around.
when a girl answers "im fine" after a few seconds, she is not fine at all.
when a girl stares at you, she is wondering why are you lying.
when a girl lays on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
when a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
when a girl says "I LOVE YOU", she means it.
when a girl says "I MISS YOU", no one in this world can miss you more than that.
life only comes around once make sure you spend it with the right person.

ti-amo

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!

there's no date for me this year. sigh, i have to work.

fyi, im currently working at Aldo, The Gardens. :)

my wish for last year's valentines day was i could spend my day with my other half this year.

seems like i gotta wait for next year's valentines day though. haha.

well, everyday could be a valentine's day. IF... AND ONLY IF... .... right?

one of my friend got dumped just a day before valentines.

it's not the girl's problem, but the guy.

even though i didn't got dumped before, but i know how it hurts, i mean deeply.

that guy is such a bastard, effin' asshole seriously.

i wonder how can they actually just play with a girl's feelings like that.

after they got what they want already, then just dumped the girl. WTF!

and yet, he still spinning cock and bull story.

if you are not over your ex or whatsoever then just don't get involve in a new relationship laa.

i feel really sad for that friend of mine, my heart sank when she called me and cried.

but one thing i know is that she's tough enough, much more tougher than i am.

lesson of the day : don't trust a guy too much. cause in the end you are the one who will get hurt the most.

p/s : i asked few of my girl friends today, if they were a boy, would they fall for me?

and guess what's the answers?

YES!!

haha. cause i asked them to say yes ma. so that i will feel better. LOL!

p/s p/s : to those who are in a relationship, appreciate & cherish your other half.

the world is soooo big, billion zillion's of people, and yet you met him/her.

it's not easy you know, what more about be with the right person you've found.

change is what happens when

the pain of holding on greater than the fear of letting go.

no matter what i do, i always forget to forget you.

ti-amo <3

starting from tomorrow, i don't think i'll have much time for blogging.

the fact that im gonna have those hard times again really made me upset.

it would be even worse when college starts, which is just in 3 weeks time.

i wonder if im still that capable to juggle with both of it.

well, no longer be that free anymore. burn my free time for the weekends.

ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i thought everything it's gonna be easier for me this year.

at least i don't have to go through what i've gone through last year.

well, i don't think im gonna plan anything for myself anymore.

cause i know everything ends up otherwise, not in the way it should be.

it's all in vain. i shall trust no one, but myself.

but what to do, just gotta live with it. it's not like i have other choice.

sigh. sigh sigh. sigh sigh sigh.

i've learnt that when you want to cheer up yourself,

you should cheer up someone else.

how i wish i wasn't an emotional person.

happy? not.

how i wish every single happy moments could stay & last forever.
so that i won't think anything about the unhappy ones.
it's not like i want to think about the sad ones all the time.
it just that i can't get all those shits out of my mind.
i thought sleeping would be the best way for me not to think about anything.
but wtf! sometimes it even appears in my dream. god knows why.
i think the reason being is i seriously think too much. that's why it happens in my dreamland.
well, seems like being happy is not really easy.
sometimes i just laugh at everything, being crazy so that i would feel happier.
i just want my friends to know that im smiling, being happy & hyper whenever im with them.
despite knowing that there's nothing to be happy about, not being truly happy sometimes.
cause when i do something really crazy & insane, they would just laugh their asses off.
i know some of my friends love my lame cold jokes & the way i laugh.
cause i really look like a retarded person, more like a clown to entertain them.
it's better to know that your friends or people around you are actually happier than yourself. isn't it?

yeah, and this is what you called L-I-F-E.

just live with it.
i think i should live my life to the fullest.
live like there's no tomorrow.
not just by saying it, but really mean it.
somehow i really wish i can.
so that means i should lepak everyday just to live life to the fullest? live like there's no tomorrow?
since then there will be non-stop-going-on yumcha session, shopping spree and all that jazz.
NAH!! no need to work meh!! $$$ don't drop from the sky ehh. issshh.
so just forget about it.
yalar, i know im talking nonsense.
lalala lalala lalala...



im getting numb towards you..
you are the one who should know why.

wtf. it's 4am now and im still here.
you should know how unhappy i am.
nah, just another emo & sleepless night.
i will be fine.

through the rain

When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain
Without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone it's okay once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and i know
That im strong enough to mend
And everytime i feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And i live one more day
And i make it through the rain

JANICE KUO LEE CHING SIS

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

im sorry for the late post sis.
anyway, happy belated birthday to you!
10 years of friendship and now still counting.
im here to wish you all the best in everything you do.
especially your studies & the relationship with sjh. =p
enjoy your trip yea & may you have an enjoyable day for your birthday!
see you soon!
love you sis. :)

BYE BECKY! :(

Dear Becky,

It was so hards for us to say goodbye last night.
You left earlier than anyone else among us.
Don't worry sis, loads of people going to Aus too. You are not alone sis. :)
Remember to call us or text us whenever you feel bored. msn, skype or even facebook.
but im sure you will have loads of fun at Aus. lol.
moreover, you have the album with you, you can see our faces whenever you want to. :)
becky, im here to wish you all the best.
although we are far apart, no matter what, you'll always be in my heart.
remember to come back to Msia during your sem break okay?
take care alright? we'll surely miss you. T__T

loves,
pikkei sis.

god-damn-it

the same old shit happens again.
WTF!!!
im effin' sick & tired of being this way.
don't know how many freaking times i've been repeating this phrase.
God is seriously testing my patience.
won't You just give me a break? a better life to live on?
godamnit.
3 more years to go.
im waiting for that day to come.

what once felt right
now gone, no trace
but at night in my dreams
i sometimes still see his face

damn, time flies.
hello february!