FRUSTRATED!

I REALLY HATE IT!!

HOW STUPID & DUMB I CAN BE?

IF OTHERS CAN DO IT, WHY CAN'T I?

IF OTHERS CAN MAKE IT, WHY CAN'T I?

sometimes when you really can't cope with everything in your life, you just feel like giving up everything.
im feeling this way right now.
giving up is so much easier than holding on & moving forward with every single thing.
i wonder how long more i can bear with this.

i could have given up right now.

Dear students,

I am rather disgusted and appalled by your attitude with this submission. Some of you are submitting without bothering to staple, most of you did not submit your assessment feedback page, some of you did not bother to send me a decent cover page, and let's not forget the 2-3 copies per submission because of silly mistakes which should have been checked prior to submission. I can go on with the number of stupid calls and stupid situations
and i must say that congratulations, this batch is the worst we have ever seen for UniSA.

I refuse to grade those that are insufficient. I will give them back to you during class. Woods' instructions is to fail those who do not bother to read the outline and submit within the guidelines simply because you are all adults.

So good luck.


what are lecturers for? aren't they supposed to teach us & guide us throughout the whole damn course?
we pay for about 12k per sem just for the whole damn course, is it that effin' hard for you to guide us?
come on laaa, the first damn assignment to hand in, the first damn time sending assignment via assignIT, the margin thingy, cover page, assesment page and so on so forth.
can't you just teach us once so that we understand what to do and won't make the same mistakes for the next following assignments??!!
HELLO!!! WE PAID FOR THE WHOLE DAMN COURSE OKAY!!! IT'S NOT FOC OKAY!!
and you are the one who said can call you whenever we have problems or questions to ask about our assignment.
and what about now? I can go on with the number of stupid calls and stupid situations.
we don't know, don't understand, that's why we asked!
cause we are afraid of doing the wrong thing & couldn't give you the best work that you've always wanted.
moreover, it's not like we don't bother to read the outline nor refuse to follow the instructions given.
i know we are all adults, but still? it's not like adults won't make mistakes right?
somehow or rather, we still need a lil' guideness.
don't tell me you don't need any guideness in your whole damn life.
mind you, im not requesting you to guide me for the whole damn assignment.
at least guide us a lil' for the sending part & those pages we need to fill in for submission.
for god's sake, this is our very first time send through assignIT & followed every single thing in
terms of formats and others for UniSA Aus okay!!

im kinda regret for choosing this degree course.
pay for such a costy course & yet this is how the lecturers treat us.
anyway, there's no use looking back or wondering. freaking 3 more years to go on.

thanks to sam, chris & ivy who bother to rang me up.
thanks a zillion.

lovely becky

REBECCA JANE LAM,
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!


becky used to have a birthday party every single year.
i really miss those days we celebrated at her house, with a whole big group of friends.
we are friends since standard 4. 9 years of friendship already.
we always lepak, sleepover, and have our little agenda at her house.
it's just like our second home for our gang. i really miss those days :(
well, she's in aus now. i hope she's doing really good there.
well, we got her the dvds she wanted & sent it through airmail. managed to arrived on time! :)
yeah, it's a surprise for her. *winks*
i really miss you sis. take good care alright. LOVES.

S U N S H I N E shines on me ! =D

IM H A P P Y !! okay, that was like few hours ago.
i haven't been feeling this way for such a loooooong time.
i mean absolutely ecstatic, the feeling of being truly happy is really wonderful.


after emo-ing for so long, i think this is the only happy post i wrote. HAHA!!
thanks to Yee Wah sis who gave me the courage & accompanied me for that.

gotta start the ball rolling on assignments.
ciao! (:

requested by Carine Lee. =)

you bite your lips & the good luck falls upon me. :)
there's so many things that i want you to know.

A Date To Remember. Before sunrise & before sunset.

15.03.2008
365 days have whizzed by just like that.

could a greater miracle take place than for us to look through each other's eyes for an instant?

the love light in her eyes.



Sometimes someone says something really small,
and it just fits into this empty space in your heart.
And you can feel it settling there, maybe for the rest of your life.

to say im over you would be the biggest lie.
there's someone who's always missing you.

helpless & hopeless

im thoroughly fatigued.
both mentally & physically tired.
uni life started for 2 weeks already.
needless to say, overwhelming with a heavy workload.
what kills me the most is to work after class & throughout the week.
try not to skip class, but i did it.
try not to doze off in class, but i did it.
damn FUCKUP!!!
it's not easy to stand on my own two feets.
imagine, i need to bear with it for 3 years.
i really need a new lease of life.

i seriously don't want to screw up my studies..
nah, i don't even have an options to choose from.
really don't know what should i do, just know how to cry.
such a fuckup for life.

"learn to forgive & forget, you are too young to hold back all these grudges"


i will not forgive & forget, ever.
if you think im being way too obstinate or adamant, then just so be it.
yeah, i know i've made this irrevocable decision, but still, it doesn't mean that i have to forgive & forget.
i can forgive & forget, but that would never happen on her.
and it's not like i want to hold back all these grudges.
do you think i derserves all these shits at my age?
just leave me alone, that will do.
there's no way turning back.
im happy with the way i am right now.

despite knowing the fact that i have to bear with all the silent sufferings, which is more than i can bear with.
i hope you understand too.
thanks for being an understanding aunty.
i do appreciate all the things you've done for me.

my dear joa <3

LOVELY JOANNE LIM JU-WEI,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

because of Jim Pierre , (someone that we once adored) we became really close friends.
he was the one who brought us together.
our friendship just develops in days since form 3.
of course there were certain setbacks that tore us apart.
and we managed to made up. since then our friendship became even stonger & bonded.
we shared loads of same interest & did many things together.
we even became home tutor together. that was alot of fun being a tutor.
dear joa, if you're reading this post, just wanna say thank you for everything.
i do appreciate it. i'll never ever forget those days we had together.
looking forward to see you babe.
you're indeed a great friend. ILY! :)

time bomb

After awhile, you just can't cry anymore.
You just have to believe that what happens is what's supposed to happen,
and you can't change that, even if you tried.
So just dry the tears, and hope that tomorrow will be a better day.



i've been keeping things all to myself all these while.
accumulated too much & it exploded, just like a time bomb.
well, just get used to it as it always happen to me umpteen times.

after so long, we met again.
thanks for being the listener.
i do really have great friends around me.
because of them, it's well worth to live on. :)

i feel like im facing everything myself.
with nothing but just tears.
that's how i feel right now.



It's so hard to show everyone that im doing fine when deep inside im not.
It's hard because I have to smile when I really can't hold back my tears.

i've been weak & i've been strong.

the deepest feelings always shows itself in silence.


i can't explain how i feel right now.
my tears just rolled down.
weep for no reason.
seriously couldn't find a reason for me to be happy.
no one could help me other than myself.

is there anyone can be there for me?
i seriously need you.