"I can say i'm fine when you don't see me cry.

I can say i'm happy when deep inside i just feel like dying.

I can say i could move on when i can't even try."

weep about it over & over again.

This world brought me down, crashed me to the floor & stomped on me.

Let me down, turned its back & walked away to leave me lay on the cold hard ground to die alone.

"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried.

Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried."

somehow i rather to go to bed and never get to wake up forever than have to live in tears everyday.

the tears i wish to wipe away, will run unchecked for another day.

as long as you know what you're doing,

as long as you're happy with it.

all i can do is just back off, there's nothing else i can do.

accept the fact and face the truth.

eventhough this is not what i want to.

with a last heave & sigh,

and it's a final goodbye.

no matter what, im still gonna wait for your reply.

even if it's gonna hurt me once more.

i don't mind.

i'll never ever forget you.

for the rest of my life.

i really mean it.

i need to know what's going on.

i really do want to know.

please tell me the truth.

at least just tell me something, would you?

i never know it would be this hard to lose something i never had.

i never knew it until that moment.

i just want to let you know, im happy to have met you in my life.

no regrets at all.

nothing can kill the pain that im going through.

im really fucking upset.

i rather you pick up a knife and stab me than treating me untrue with all pack of lies.

the pain that i feel right now is hell greater than being stab by you.

the best damn thing i've ever had as an advanced gift for my birthday.

i'll never ever forget this.

thanks for making my life even more miserable.

I HATE MYSELF

the girls

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, YEW HOONG :)

11/05/09

♥♥♥

Kittie's 19th Birthday @ Poppy Gardens.

"Seeing you again was like meeting for the first time.
Seeing you again was the sweetest torture I may ever know.
Seeing you again made me wish I'd never let you go."

after weeks of insomnia, finally, i slept soundly last night. :)))))))

someone like you just simply made me 'alive'.

i have all these feelings that i've never felt before.

YOU, will never leave my mind.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i'm missing you.
although i just saw you yesterday:)

everything is back, and again.
insomnia. sleepless night.
have been dreaming a lot lately.
also, lose of appetite.

thanks to my mind, non-stop thinking about something.

WHAT THE HELL AM I THINKING?

I NEED A BREAAAAAAK!

RUN AWAY!

i've been worrying a lot.
i've been thinking a lot.


nothing comes easily.


I'm on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Dont know how
but Ill get by
Slowly pull myself together

fuck it.
everything i wrote were rubbish.
gonna end up with all the F grades.